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Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
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3:54 pm
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| Monday, September 6th, 2004
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11:29 pm
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tonite was awesome
the end.
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2:54 am
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you fucking son of a bitch. you cheated on me you bastard. i thought you were my best friend. thanks alot bryan, because now i have like zero friends. you're a fucking liar. how can you say you ever loved me when you FUCKING CHEATED ON ME.
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: yea but i only like u and i dont cheat on u i could never cheat on u
FUCK YOU we will never go out again. i hope you're fucking happy with yourself. i thought you were my best friend, and you hurt me with the thing you knew would hurt me the most. how dare you do that. GO HAVE SEX WITH YOUR STUPID SKANK YOU FUCKING PITMAN FUCKS BELONG TOGETHER. you're a fucking liar, mr. we're going to get married. you didn't know what the fuck you were talking about. and i thought we would be best friends forever, but you fucked me over. have fun with your slut you bastard.
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: hey i did lie before but im tellin u the truth now u probably already no but i did hook up with amber and i did make the frist move
i hope you're happy with what you've done
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1:32 am
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so today i woke up at 1. had a donut for lunch, watched tv. went to the boardwalk w/my dad. we had macks pizza and played games in the casino. come home and watched like 4 episodes of chappelle show lmao he's so funny. so then i went to bed and online. now im going to tell everybody what happened with bryan and i. bryan was my first boyfriend and first person i ever hooked up with. (sad i know) we have been going out for almost 11 months. i have been thinking a lot lately, and i want to be able to hook up w/other ppl. im starting college, and maybe ill meet somebody, who knows. i didnt want to be in like a 3 year relationship and always wonder and wish i had kissed at least one other person or had another boyfriend. bryan had previous girlfriends, so he had the luxury of experiencing other people. i didn't. so bryan and i talked, and he said i could hook up w/other ppl. then i met this guy, and i liked him right away. i was really confused, how do you love one person and like another? i wanted to hook up with this person, and told them i liked them. so last night i told bryan that i told this guy i liked him. and i wanted to take a break. i can't hook up w/somebody else with a clear conscience. that's cheating, and it would hurt us both a lot. well i'm down wildwood right now, so we agreed to talk later.
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: will talk when u get home
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: but i liked us being gf anbf better tho but will get the hang out if and will wait till u get home
but i still wasnt positive during the convo, so i asked..
michellayyy: wait a sec
michellayyy: r we still goin out lol
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: k
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: for now yea i guess
so i thought that we were still going out and we said i love you and everything.
so today comes, and all of a sudden i start hearing stuff about amber. i had previously heard that bryan was doing stuff that was confusing her, like that he liked her. and then i see this..
Amber8293: im for real
_____: ok then
_____: thats fucked up
Amber8293: why?
_____: so your gettign whit him
Amber8293: it jsut started
Amber8293: i dont know
Amber8293: why are you askin?
_____: cause thats fucked up he has a g/f
_____: your a fucker lol
Amber8293: NO HE DOESNT HAVE A GF!
Amber8293: i deff know they ARENT together though
Amber8293: bc i was on the phone with him at 3 this morning while he was tellin me
Amber8293: i know what im talkin about
well she obviously thought she knew what she was talking about, but as far as i knew, we were still together. so i asked her..
michellayyy: did you get w/bryan
michellayyy: ???
Amber8293: no
Amber8293: y?
then she tried saying her friend amanda had said that stuff. then she's like
Amber8293: so like...if your the one that wants to "explore and do things with other people" why cant bryan?
and i flipped and was like whatever you stupid bitch. and then i find out that bryan has been telling everybody we're not together anymore, when we still were.
Amber8293: um your forgettin you FUCKIN BROKE UP WITH HIM!
michellayyy: no i didnt
Amber8293: and im not a fuckin whore either
michellayyy: we are still together right now
Amber8293: then why the hell is he tellin everyone you are broken up?"
michellayyy: i woudlnt kno
Amber8293: your fuckin phyco
michellayyy: right
Amber8293: psycho*
Amber8293: ILuvMYWeinerDogs: no were done
Amber8293: what the hell is that then?
michellayyy: we were waiting till i got home to talk about all this
Amber8293: apparently fuckin not
Amber8293: you need to get your shit straightin out before you btich at me
even if they didn't hook up, he has been doing stuff with her and he lied to me
michellayyy: did you know amber likes you
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: yea but did u no i only like u
michellayyy: you have been doing stuff
michellayyy: ive heard from various people that you
michellayyy: have been "confusing her" w/ur actions and she said for you to leave her alone
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: ok
michellayyy: you have been holding her hand and had ur arm around her
michellayyy: and u guys have hooked up or are going to
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: michelle one nite we all walked there cause ppl were drunk um helping them so they dont fall
michellayyy: i dont believe it
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: ok
michellayyy: and you've been telling everybody we broke up
michellayyy: when we havent
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: ok
michellayyy: ILuvMYWeinerDogs: no were done
michellayyy: ALRITE BRYAN YOU ENDED IT
michellayyy: so fuck you
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: ok
michellayyy: you dont love me you're just a liar
michellayyy: you've been going behind my back all this time
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: yea howd u guess
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: but no i havent
michellayyy: yes u have
michellayyy: i thought u were my best friend
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: u hated stacie for going out and hookin up with ppl
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: and shit like that
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: and thats what u want to do now
michellayyy: all i wanted to do was hook up w/other ppl
michellayyy: take a little break
michellayyy: i thought we didnt break up, and were gonna talk when i got home
michellayyy: but then u tell everybody we're done
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: look at yesterday yesterday
michellayyy: what
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: its over
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: theres nothing
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: to do
ILuvMYWeinerDogs: from yesterday it had to be over
and with that, the fairytale of bryan and michelle has ended. i thought he was my best friend. i feel so betrayed. all the shit that i did. he told me he loved me and we were going to get married. ive always felt guilty because i didnt feel as strongly as he did, and then he fucked me over in the end. i thought we were still together and were going to wait till i got home to talk and sort things out. but he told everybody we were over, even though he still had me in his profile and shit. even if he didnt hook up w/amber, i know he has been flirting and probably likes her, and she definately likes him. she told me that. i heard he was holding her hand and had his arm around her. if i did that to a guy he woulda flipped. i don't know what's gonna happen now, but when i get home im making sure we talk.
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| Saturday, September 4th, 2004
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10:47 am - you are my only one
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last night i was really depressed like i have been lately. i talked to lou for like an hour and it was really nice. but i just hate some things in my life so much. like they really suck. i have been depressed for a week. i don't know what's up with me, but it's really frustrating. i hate my grandmother so much. she is the biggest bitch in the world..she causes most of my problems. like i have to be home by fucking 10 O'CLOCK when im EIGHTEEN. last night she started saying shit to me again telling me that we need to get out of the house and why don't we just leave blah blah. god i hate her. she is so mean, always saying stuff to me, acting like im a big whore, calling me a bitch. she's the only real bitch i know. anyways, im sad and i just woke up, which is weird b/c i never wake up this early. i have to go down wildwood w/my family and i really don't want to. maybe i'll beg to stay home. i'll be down there sat, sun, and mon. but i'll have my labtop, so i'll be on aim. why am i always crying nowadays? like this is the 4th or 5th day i have been crying. god help me please.
current mood:  tired
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| Friday, August 6th, 2004
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11:12 pm - comment to be added
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| Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
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2:43 pm - JOIN
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| Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
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2:24 pm
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